Today..

Today i think of the people that have come and gone in my life and my past.

I wasn't a good canoe-poloist. I wasn't fast, i couldn't get as many goals in as others. No one thot well of me until one day i managed to achieve something. My acrobat (a type of canoe use for the game) didn't cap (capsize) when one of the guys tried to cap me during the training. It felt like forever and it felt good. Everyone was in shock. Their view of me changed.

I met a new girl online. I was lonely. And miserable. My gf hadn't bothered bout me and couldn't be bothered to talk to me. She was the one who gave me comfort when i needed it most. I thot it was love. Maybe it was. But i guess most of it was just a needy kind of love. It was convenient too. She studied in the same sch and i could meet her as and when i wanted to. Nothing else mattered more at that point of time. We started on a wrong note. Therefore ended on a wrong note. But at least now we're friends.

I've betrayed one and we tried for so long to forget this. To put this all behind us. Eventually we managed to. Guess in this life we all have our own mistakes. Be it big or small. To learn from it is the most important thing.

Maybe there's just too many kinds of love in this world that's why so many of us are getting hurt and getting confused. Losing our sight and our initial path.

Yesterday, i chatted with a close poly friend. Tho there are things which she never tell me and things that i never told her. But definately it takes a certain amount of closeness to be able to share some intricate details in our lives. In the midst of it all, i realise that over the past few years, i had accomdated so much that i had lost sight of who i was and what i really liked and wanted in life. There's no regret. Just lessons to be learnt.

It had hurt so much because i forgot a lesson learnt and a rule i set for myself and for a certain relationship 7mths ago. Conclusion? Lesson not learnt. Result? Getting hurt. Just another lesson in life for myself.

When will all these end? Do you ask? Life's lessons will never end. It's just how you handle them and learn. Things need not turn bad even if you don't learn the lesson but it might have been better if one had.

To all my friends out there who've became single and who're still single. You never died without having another in your life. Life has its own beauty but sadly not everyone sees it.

To the group of friends who've all became single. Maybe god just wants us to be single together so we can all lend a shoulder to each and everyone of us. This is also a beauty in life isn't it? At least we're not alone. =)